Over the last 20 months I’ve felt a lot of shame and embarrassment when being in the public. I feel a little weird wearing sunglasses all the time. I feel even weirder using drops made from my own blood (carrying them around in a steel tumbler). It can be socially awkward when you’re sitting with someone and you have to put drops in your eyes every 15-30 minutes. It puts all of the focus on you.
“Do you have to put those drops in all of the time?”
"Yes, on most days."
“Do you think you are addicted to those drops? Like it’s psychosomatic?”
"No definitely not."
“Isn’t there a cure?”
“Can’t you sue?”
"It’s very hard to pursue medical malpractice."
“Will you have to do this for the rest of your life?”
"I’m just taking it one day at a time for now."
“I had LASIK done and it was great. I’m so glad I did it.”
"SIGH. Yeah well it doesn’t work out for everyone. Some people aren’t good candidates for it. It can really screw up someone’s life if they aren’t screened properly."
At the present time, I have to wear sunglasses during the day and wear 7 Eye Dry Eye Goggles. I also work with a mini humidifier at my desk. I carry a tumbler with serum drops and Systane Ultra drops. I also use a hot compress frequently throughout the day. It’s ok when I work at my desk, but it can be really humiliating to go to a meeting (especially with people that don’t know my deal). I need an extra bag just to carry my dry eye crap with me.
How do you deal with dry eye shame?
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